anxiety over silly thing
Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2017 8:43 am
I've been depressed for a while regarding hair issues and lack of friends. I bought a brand new car. After 5 months i dropped key on door sill. I took it in to the most expensive prestigious repair centre in the area. They fixed the door sill but crashed it.
before i collected it I told my mother it would be damaged when I collected it. i knew that that would be something that would absolutely drive me nuts. I've been spending money trying to get the car back to how im happy with it but its got those jet wash windows in front bumper which are hard to paint
Before collecting it I thought to myself that if they damaged it then that would be a sign that life was telling me to go. So its not that I am suicidal about the car - its just that its the last straw as I knew I was the type of person it would happen to
I know other people have got way more serious issues. my girlfriends mom needs a heart operation.
So then I think i should not let it get to me and try and block it out but I cant. I just keep thinking about dropping the key over and over and over again. I get lower and lower and which upsets those around me and then I think I would be ok now and wouldn't be anxious and panicky if I hadn't dropped the damn key
I feel an idiot but my brain goes round and round in circles and I start scratching and picking at my scalp
I just keep thinking of all the peoples cars they had to crash they chose the one person least able to cope with such a thing
before i collected it I told my mother it would be damaged when I collected it. i knew that that would be something that would absolutely drive me nuts. I've been spending money trying to get the car back to how im happy with it but its got those jet wash windows in front bumper which are hard to paint
Before collecting it I thought to myself that if they damaged it then that would be a sign that life was telling me to go. So its not that I am suicidal about the car - its just that its the last straw as I knew I was the type of person it would happen to
I know other people have got way more serious issues. my girlfriends mom needs a heart operation.
So then I think i should not let it get to me and try and block it out but I cant. I just keep thinking about dropping the key over and over and over again. I get lower and lower and which upsets those around me and then I think I would be ok now and wouldn't be anxious and panicky if I hadn't dropped the damn key
I feel an idiot but my brain goes round and round in circles and I start scratching and picking at my scalp
I just keep thinking of all the peoples cars they had to crash they chose the one person least able to cope with such a thing