New member - not sure what to expect

[OliveCottage89]

Hello,
I am trying to find out if other people have found forums a useful support? This is my first post and I'm not sure what to expect. All I know is that if I keep staying the way I am and leaning so much on my husband I am going to drag him down. I feel guilty all of the time and yet I am not motivated to change - I have no drive, no energy and no enthusiasm to see people / socialise / make plans. I don't know what I can do to get out of this perpetual cycle of self- loathing. When I give into it I just want to stay in bed or sit in the shower. I don't know at want point I'll be able to get out of this spell. I'm worried about my relationship with my husband and my family being affected by my low mood / intolerance and irritability. I have no idea what the answer is... all I know is that I should be grateful for everything I have, but its never enough when I always feel low... I'd rather have less and feel happier... I don't know what the answer is and I suppose from the forums I was wanting to hear how other people use the forum or other parts of this website for support? Thanks for reading. O.

[Callie]

I'm a new member too. I hear u on all fronts. It's just so hard. I wish I could wave a magic wand and get better. People say do this do that and it's like really? May be a good idea but so hard. Today I'm taking my dd out to get clothes to force myself out of the house. I know I should go for a walk but again no mprivation. I guess for me I plan to start with little goals. My main goal is to talk to myself like a friend not a judger. So hard to do. Not sure if these little goals will help in the long run but anything is better than how it is right now. It's nice to see that we aren't alone though. Stay strong.