Hi, I'm new to this board
Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2017 11:59 pm
Hi everyone, I'm new to this board. I'm a married female w/o any kids. My husband and no one in my family is supportive of me. I suffer mostly from depression, social anxiety, stress, and insomnia. Very few of my friends really know about my problems or struggles with these issues.
I often feel alone and that hardly anyone cares about me that much. I'm on paxil and valium right now. I currently have no insurance but have found a way to get my meds greatly reduce using a certain coupon online. I've tried many different medications over the years. I used to have issues with bad panic attacks. The first one occurred when I was around 20 and it lasted until I was in my 30's. I don't have bad panic attacks anymore, but I still have some slight social anxiety issues in certain situations. I also have some self esteem issues as well.
I have been to therapists in the past, but none of them have helped me. It seems like all they cared about was the money as they mostly just listened to me talk. How is that supposed to really help me- Even if I could find the right therapist now, I can't afford one. We're pretty much broke most of the time now- I'm going to start a new job soon, but I won't be making much money.
I often feel alone and misunderstood. I recently left another depression board due to feeling judged by some of the people there and being blamed for some of the issues I was having with certain people and situations. Most of the people on there were OK, but the ones that kept on criticizing me again and again chased me away from that site.
Even other members saw that I was being treated harshly and told me so in their PM's to me. Hopefully the people here will be more supportive and understanding. I need support, not criticism and blame. I get enough of that from people in general, especially from my husband and my family. My parents and sibling all have issues, but are in denial about having any. They act happiness is a choice and that I should stop worrying so much and just snap out of it. They don't get that I have a chemical imbalance-
I hope to find the support that I need on here. I'll try my best to help others as much as I can-
I often feel alone and that hardly anyone cares about me that much. I'm on paxil and valium right now. I currently have no insurance but have found a way to get my meds greatly reduce using a certain coupon online. I've tried many different medications over the years. I used to have issues with bad panic attacks. The first one occurred when I was around 20 and it lasted until I was in my 30's. I don't have bad panic attacks anymore, but I still have some slight social anxiety issues in certain situations. I also have some self esteem issues as well.
I have been to therapists in the past, but none of them have helped me. It seems like all they cared about was the money as they mostly just listened to me talk. How is that supposed to really help me- Even if I could find the right therapist now, I can't afford one. We're pretty much broke most of the time now- I'm going to start a new job soon, but I won't be making much money.
I often feel alone and misunderstood. I recently left another depression board due to feeling judged by some of the people there and being blamed for some of the issues I was having with certain people and situations. Most of the people on there were OK, but the ones that kept on criticizing me again and again chased me away from that site.
Even other members saw that I was being treated harshly and told me so in their PM's to me. Hopefully the people here will be more supportive and understanding. I need support, not criticism and blame. I get enough of that from people in general, especially from my husband and my family. My parents and sibling all have issues, but are in denial about having any. They act happiness is a choice and that I should stop worrying so much and just snap out of it. They don't get that I have a chemical imbalance-
I hope to find the support that I need on here. I'll try my best to help others as much as I can-