Terrible feeling of being alone
Posted: Sun Jan 17, 2010 11:44 am
OF ALL the feelings ive encounted this week ,and there have been a few
emptinesss ,and suicide to mention just a few ,,,i have a great fear of being alone ,,something is going to happen ,to take all my freinds away
its just a feeling of dread i have ,you came to me from nowere ,and gave
me hope and a purpose ,,im mean i had my family of course but as you know ,i must protect them from my illness ,,well the scary parts anyway
so altough ,not really alone ,,my deppressed mind fears losing you all ,,
this is most uncomfortable ,,,this seems such a fragile thing this internet
maybe it will break or be taken away ,were is it ,,? it came to me so quickly and without warning ,it could go just as fast ,,,,i put this here ,
i think it is a phobia ,,its taking me over ,,i often just turn on to make sure its still here ,,sometimes when the server goes down i think this is it
ok just me being ,,insecure i guess ,,why should i have this great thing and all these freinds in my life ,,everything else i have had has been taken away ,,why should i deserve you ,? hugs ken xxx
emptinesss ,and suicide to mention just a few ,,,i have a great fear of being alone ,,something is going to happen ,to take all my freinds away
its just a feeling of dread i have ,you came to me from nowere ,and gave
me hope and a purpose ,,im mean i had my family of course but as you know ,i must protect them from my illness ,,well the scary parts anyway
so altough ,not really alone ,,my deppressed mind fears losing you all ,,
this is most uncomfortable ,,,this seems such a fragile thing this internet
maybe it will break or be taken away ,were is it ,,? it came to me so quickly and without warning ,it could go just as fast ,,,,i put this here ,
i think it is a phobia ,,its taking me over ,,i often just turn on to make sure its still here ,,sometimes when the server goes down i think this is it
ok just me being ,,insecure i guess ,,why should i have this great thing and all these freinds in my life ,,everything else i have had has been taken away ,,why should i deserve you ,? hugs ken xxx