Fear
Posted: Tue May 24, 2011 10:32 pm
Im afriad of humans. Like, I can talk to them, associate with them, but say Im walking down a street, or paying for something at a store. I freeze up. I twitch. I sweat. I think they're judging me, secretly laughing at me in their mind. Everything in my brain kinda races, and I cant focus..
Sometimes I lock myself in the bathroom, when Im home alone. Even a slightly weird sound can send me into a paranoid frenzy, thinking someone's in the house, someone's gonna kill me...
And even though I hate myself for it, I try to convince myself theres no one there, theres no one ever there, I still sit in there behind locked doors for hours.
I have a panic attack whenever im in complete blackness.
I cant go anywhere on an airplane.
Sometimes I lock myself in the bathroom, when Im home alone. Even a slightly weird sound can send me into a paranoid frenzy, thinking someone's in the house, someone's gonna kill me...
And even though I hate myself for it, I try to convince myself theres no one there, theres no one ever there, I still sit in there behind locked doors for hours.
I have a panic attack whenever im in complete blackness.
I cant go anywhere on an airplane.