THE FIRE
Posted: Tue Oct 27, 2009 11:40 am
OK WHEN I WAS 18 I JUST LEFT HOME ,I HAD GOT FED UP OF THE PARENT HASSLE AND I WENT OUT FOR A DRINK ONE NIGHT AND NEVER WENT HOME AGAIN ,THIS MUST HAVE KILLED MY MOTHER ,BUT I WAS YOUNG AND DIDNT CARE ,I SLEPT ANYWERE SOMETIMES AT FREIND S
HOUSE S SOMETIME JUST IN HEDGES OLD BUILDINGS ETC ,AFTER ABOUT 6 MNTHS MY MOTHER GOT A FREIND TO ASK ME TO COME HOME ,I WASNT INTERESTED ,BUT AFTER A FEW DRINKS ONE NIGHT I WENT HOME ,MY FATHER OPENED THE DOOR AND WENT OFF ON ONE STRAIGHT AWAY ,WE HAD A LITTLE FIGHT ,THEN MY MOTHER INTERVINED AND I WAS LET IN THE HOUSE ,MAM WAS GLAD TO SEE ME ,DAD NEW I HAD THE DEVIL IN ME PLUS A FEW OTHER THINGS ,THEY WENT UP TO BED ,AND I WAS LEFT TO STEW IN MY OWN JUICE ,I THOUGHT I WOULD TEACH MY DAD A LESSON ,THATS ALL I WAS THINKING WHEN I LIT THE NEWSPAERS UNDER THE TV ,I THOUGHT THEY WOULD JUST BURN AND LEAVE A MESS ,AND WHEN MY DAD SAW HE WOULD BE SCARED AND LEAVE ME ALONE ,WE KNOW THE OUTCOME THE HOUSE WAS A TOTAL LOSS AND ALL MY PARENTS POSESSIONS
WERE LOST ,I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO FORGIVE MYSELF FOR THIS AND WHEN I SEE MY MAM AND DAD I FEEL VILE ,20 YEARS AFTER THIS MY MAM AND DAD DIVORCED ,DOWN TO ME IM SURE ,MAM SENT ME A LONG LETTER TELLING ME MY DAD HAD BEEN A BOOZER AND WOMANIZER WHEN I WAS YOUNG ,AND SAID THATS WHY WE HAD NO MONEY HE SPENT IT ON TARTS SHE SAID , 1 YEAR AGO MY MOTHER HAD A STROKE ,BLAME MYSELF AGAIN AND THEN 12 WEEKS AGO SHE TRYED TO KILL HERSELF AND WAS SECTIONED UNDER THE MENTAL HEALTH ACT ,ALL DOWN TO ME ,,,,,,,,,WHEN I HAD DONE THE FIRE A COUPLE OF WEEKS LATER ,I WAS WALKING IN THE VILLAGE ,AND WAS BUNGGLED INTO A CAR ,TAKEN SOMEWERE REMOTE AND BEATEN BADLY ,AND TOLD IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS IF I DID NOT LEAVE THE VILLAGE I WOULD BE KILLED AND THEY MEANT IT ON THE OTHER HAND THE GANG I HUNG OUT WITH THOUGHT I WAS A HERO THE ULTIMATE PUNK I SPENT 4 WEEKS IN PRISON AWAITING SENTENCE I WAS ALLOWED MY FREEDOM AND DID COMMUNITY SERVICE .BUT KNOWONE EVER UNDERSTOOD I WAS NOT FREED AND NEVER WILL BE EVEN GOT ON NATIONAL TV
,THIS WAS A STUPID TEENAGE THING THAT JUST WENT HORRIBLY
WRONG ,SO THERE IT IS ,A LITTLE OF MY ENORMOUS PAIN ,YOU MAY UNDERSTAND ME A LITTLE BETTER NOW ,AND KNOW THAT I DO KNOW HOW IT WILL END ,,,,,,,,,,,KEN
HOUSE S SOMETIME JUST IN HEDGES OLD BUILDINGS ETC ,AFTER ABOUT 6 MNTHS MY MOTHER GOT A FREIND TO ASK ME TO COME HOME ,I WASNT INTERESTED ,BUT AFTER A FEW DRINKS ONE NIGHT I WENT HOME ,MY FATHER OPENED THE DOOR AND WENT OFF ON ONE STRAIGHT AWAY ,WE HAD A LITTLE FIGHT ,THEN MY MOTHER INTERVINED AND I WAS LET IN THE HOUSE ,MAM WAS GLAD TO SEE ME ,DAD NEW I HAD THE DEVIL IN ME PLUS A FEW OTHER THINGS ,THEY WENT UP TO BED ,AND I WAS LEFT TO STEW IN MY OWN JUICE ,I THOUGHT I WOULD TEACH MY DAD A LESSON ,THATS ALL I WAS THINKING WHEN I LIT THE NEWSPAERS UNDER THE TV ,I THOUGHT THEY WOULD JUST BURN AND LEAVE A MESS ,AND WHEN MY DAD SAW HE WOULD BE SCARED AND LEAVE ME ALONE ,WE KNOW THE OUTCOME THE HOUSE WAS A TOTAL LOSS AND ALL MY PARENTS POSESSIONS
WERE LOST ,I HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO FORGIVE MYSELF FOR THIS AND WHEN I SEE MY MAM AND DAD I FEEL VILE ,20 YEARS AFTER THIS MY MAM AND DAD DIVORCED ,DOWN TO ME IM SURE ,MAM SENT ME A LONG LETTER TELLING ME MY DAD HAD BEEN A BOOZER AND WOMANIZER WHEN I WAS YOUNG ,AND SAID THATS WHY WE HAD NO MONEY HE SPENT IT ON TARTS SHE SAID , 1 YEAR AGO MY MOTHER HAD A STROKE ,BLAME MYSELF AGAIN AND THEN 12 WEEKS AGO SHE TRYED TO KILL HERSELF AND WAS SECTIONED UNDER THE MENTAL HEALTH ACT ,ALL DOWN TO ME ,,,,,,,,,WHEN I HAD DONE THE FIRE A COUPLE OF WEEKS LATER ,I WAS WALKING IN THE VILLAGE ,AND WAS BUNGGLED INTO A CAR ,TAKEN SOMEWERE REMOTE AND BEATEN BADLY ,AND TOLD IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS IF I DID NOT LEAVE THE VILLAGE I WOULD BE KILLED AND THEY MEANT IT ON THE OTHER HAND THE GANG I HUNG OUT WITH THOUGHT I WAS A HERO THE ULTIMATE PUNK I SPENT 4 WEEKS IN PRISON AWAITING SENTENCE I WAS ALLOWED MY FREEDOM AND DID COMMUNITY SERVICE .BUT KNOWONE EVER UNDERSTOOD I WAS NOT FREED AND NEVER WILL BE EVEN GOT ON NATIONAL TV
,THIS WAS A STUPID TEENAGE THING THAT JUST WENT HORRIBLY
WRONG ,SO THERE IT IS ,A LITTLE OF MY ENORMOUS PAIN ,YOU MAY UNDERSTAND ME A LITTLE BETTER NOW ,AND KNOW THAT I DO KNOW HOW IT WILL END ,,,,,,,,,,,KEN