MY PRIDE WONT ALLOW ME TO CRY
Posted: Sun Sep 16, 2018 11:24 am
I have lots of friend. Im the talkative one. But why im so lonely? I cry behind their backs, way from my parents, brothers, family, friends... I dont know If thats okay but I know thats the right thing to do for now.
I dont feel needed by anyone in this world. I feel insecure. I dont feel liked. I dont feel loved. Will anyone ever remember me after I died? Maybe thats why I craved to be reliable. Because I want to feel needed. Maybe thats why I wont cry in front of anyone.
I dont want to be less strong in front of them. I want to be trusted. I AM NOT AN OPEN BOOK! NO ONE EVER FIND OUT WHAT IS INSIDE OF MY HEAD!
My life is way too normal that it becomes not normal at all. I live up day by day for the bills I gotta pay eveyday. I dont have money. But i cant even ask anyone about that. I get jealous easily if someone is higher that me. "I want to be higher too. I want to climb more!"
I dont feel needed by anyone in this world. I feel insecure. I dont feel liked. I dont feel loved. Will anyone ever remember me after I died? Maybe thats why I craved to be reliable. Because I want to feel needed. Maybe thats why I wont cry in front of anyone.
I dont want to be less strong in front of them. I want to be trusted. I AM NOT AN OPEN BOOK! NO ONE EVER FIND OUT WHAT IS INSIDE OF MY HEAD!
My life is way too normal that it becomes not normal at all. I live up day by day for the bills I gotta pay eveyday. I dont have money. But i cant even ask anyone about that. I get jealous easily if someone is higher that me. "I want to be higher too. I want to climb more!"