Rencha wrote:I'm tired of smiling. I'm tired of laugh. I'm tired of always giving the perfect advice. I'm tired of always being "okay" or "fine". I'm tired of understanding everyone's pain and nobody understanding mine. I'm tired of being tires all the time. I want to hurt. I want to show the world I'm not okay. I want to cry and scream and be angry. I want to show them my scars. I want a hug. Now I want to die because I've been hiding myself so long that I dont know if I even want to heal. I'm just so exhausted. But I know I need to learn to be okay for real. I need to heal. But I dont know how.
Just have your coffee and just do what ever you like/ alone / or with others. you have 2 options. ONLY AND ONLY 2 OPTIONS IN ALL OVER YOUR LIFE: 1.Smile 2.Cry
no one will give you a miracle to have a better life-maybe somebody give it to you but its just temporary it wont last forever.
just set your goals and fight for it. you want hug i want hug he want hug she want hug ... just countdown how many people in the world want hug. so only 2 options you have. what about the first one? its good isnt that? it sounds good.
everytime i say that transformation from the worst or maybe worse to best or at least better has pain.
you need to tolerate that to be better person than yesterday's. just bear that in your mind that nobody will give it to you/nobody will give you happiness and a smile and even a hug! first you need to 1. decide to change 2. let people love you and you love them. 3. smile and smile over again.
just go and schedule right now. right down everything you like from the positive ones to negative ones.
i offer something to do: just burn every negative thoughts that you had and you written them down.
and have it in front of yourself. think about those everytime and your unconscious mind will work over time to solve the problems and reach whatever your have written. that mind will do it itself.
i dont know how i write these but im stuck in my own problem. i dont know. just check if you guys n girls have any idea to solve my mental involvement. thanks. sorry for bad english skills