What can I do

[Helloraspberries1]

Hi there, thanks for taking the time to read this.

Lately my mood has been ok however I still get really down for no reason. Sometimes I'm fine but the next I'm so low it's hard to get back up.

Two days ago at work I had a difficult shift. I had the same argument with this guy at work over exchanging text messages where I was going on mainly about myself and how I don't like myself. He then told me to stop but didn't and goes block me. I was then not happy since that happened. After that he seemed to be getting close to this girl who liked him but he didn't like back a few days after. I don't know why I felt jealous but I just did. I did like him but didn't like me and I don't know whether that's it or seeing his true colours has made me feel different.

Then on that same shift as I wasn't at all happy some customer said where's this I checked the shop didn't have any then they go to someone else and they find it. At that point I was like what the hell is wrong with me. I felt even more down. The woman says I'm not doing my job probably. Again I had a go at her. At that point felt even more angry and upset that I told others that there are people who want to bring me down and are two faced. They do and I've witnessed it.

I do like this job but since I've been there I've been having more goods days then bad. They haven't let me go which I'm really worried about cuz other jobs have but I know they have doubts about me whether I can cope or not. I've been here this far so what do they know. Only one manager believes in me but he don't understand how I generally feel sometimes.

The only people I have close to that job is one girl and a couple of others and that's it. People are saying dont give up but I'm not going to. I'm waiting to my contract ends this month and if they let me carry on for another three months then I should know by then whether it will work out or not.

I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm also having trouble finding a boyfriend. I know silly but I do to guys mostly by using dating site and everyone on there is the same. There's not real people. There either not my type or horrible. What can I do to find someone who this? Would appreciate some advice?

Everyday is a struggle for me. I know people have it worse but I still got issues. I don't know what kind of mood I will be in or anything. My medication got increased not long ago by the doctor so even though things seem a bit more less pressured I still got these insecurities. Also he referred me to an organisation what can help me meet others and socialise and attend groups for those with low mood. I just wanna know do you think it's alot to do with myself or people?

I would like some advice please.

[Leanner25]

Hi I don't know ur name but if ur so unhappy in ur job u need to find new one I know it's hard but if u don't and u keep going on the way u are they will sack u as they won't let u speak to customer like that hope ur ok tho