Teach me how to live...

[sthprkln]

I'm a career who has spent his entire life chasing accomplishments - career, 2x Ironman triathlete. I could blame my overbearing parents, but my OCD Personality has a lot to do with it. I've felt very alone for years - haven't had a relationship in 8 yrs - and as I turn 36 and all of my friends are married (most with kids), I feel unbearably alone.

I have a lot of sadness and regret that I haven't done any living for the last decade. I've always done the responsible thing - taking care of friends and family - including living with my legally blind grandmother for the last 2 yrs of her life. I even regret that I didn't do more for her - sometimes I'd sit and study instead of talking to her more.

I feel like the dried out leftover food after a barbeque.

I need a resource to show me how to live, because without working 14 hrs a day, 6 days a week, I have no idea what to do.