So I think it all started when I was 13Y/O. I only had mild depression, but over the years they have evolved. When I was 16-18 I started getting delusional thinking nobody cared and like I was in a boubble protecting me from feelings. Even though I had crippeling depression I was able to get through it with good grades (even the best in my class).
I now work as an electrician making good money and have a girlfriend, but it all kinda feel pointless. I get no joy from my life, everything feels like a chore. When I'm at my worst I try to drink the pain away.
No one can see when I'm depressed, not even my girlfriend or mother. I have become such a good actor I might be fooling myself.
I'm excited to see how long I am able to last. I'm just so tired. Tired of waking up, working, sleeping, eating and even breathing. I recently went to the doctor concerning nauseousnes and puking, headaches and such. Now im taking a scan of my head to see if I have tumours, funny thing is I'm hoping it shows positive.
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