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I'm not allowed to lie! I'm not allowed to tic! I'm not allowed to have sex!
I'm not allowed to do anything!

I was just lying right now!

I just think that no one will ever know how much I suffered from suppressing my tics. I think they get the feeling that I am just mentioning this to get others to feel sorry for me. But, it's just unbelievably bad. And I can't do it anymore. And if I do it. I feel that people are going to say that I...

I have to go to school right now, but I am so afraid.
I can't do my tics. I'm afraid to hurt people. But I'm also afraid how they will react, if I do my tics.
I just don't know.