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I'm quite done caring what happens anymore. Just going to roll with the punches while remaining as detached as I can.

>.< I really don't have a choice...

Wonderful? Not really... It's a horrible feeling to just wake up one day & suddenly crave everything you've hated your entire life.

Everything is starting to change.. I'm unwillingly changing 'for the better' I'm showing interest in things again & I'm wanting love & friends & to exist.

Eh, I hate hugs. Well, therapy starts tomorrow, I'm still not too sure why I'm doing it though.. I think I'm just obligated due to so many people telling me I should do it.. who knows?

I figured out the hug system. lol

I guess i'm doing ok, nothing horrible, but, nothing too great either.

You may be right, I might want a future deep down & it's beginning to seep through, if that makes sense.

& I suppose I can try to be more positive & honest with myself.

.. like it's being ripped away from me.. I have no interest in anything anymore, I rarely eat, I sleep all day & wake up at 3 in the morning. I abandoned my friends about 4 or 5 years ago & haven't made any new ones [it's not really an issue to me I'm just pointing it out] & I JUST BIT A...

Thanks Warmsoul, but I don't see an end to this anytime soon. I'm going to have to change my whole life around to fix anything & frankly, I don't think it's worth it.

Let's see, how do I feel today? Hmmm, My joints haven't hurt too much today, which I suppose is good. But I still feel like I'm lost in an unfamiliar world. Like, I'm somewhere I shouldn't be & there's no point of trying to find my way home because nothing is there for me. I still have no intere...

I'm not even sure if there's a name for it. I hate hate hate leaving an impact on people whether good or bad. A woman once told me that no matter what you do you leave an impact on someone, so I've already accepted that fact that I'm screwed in that department.. & I can't kill myself cause that ...

I tend to listen to music to the point that it dictates my very mood. Some favorites are: By My Side by Ironhand http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GgUOWu9yLXg Vertebroken by Ironhand http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXk0PQ-VYYo MK Ultra by [:SITD:] Call The Ships To Port by Covenant http://www.youtube.co...

Why thank you!

Thanks for the welcomes! @ Crystalgaze I guess I'm content with it because I've been this way for so long, I've never really had the chance to know life without such thoughts & feelings. About my present.. I'd say I'm just.. here. Not really wanting to go anywhere or do anything, just existing i...

I'm Austin, I'm 19 & I was born and raised in Cleveland Ohio. Don't really have any interests to list.. Oh, I was into music production & I got one or two good songs out there but finally lost interest in such activities. I've been Depressed for around... 11 years now, & I don't really l...